Love bombed

 I hope I forgive myself for loving someone like you. I know that you will never care, that it will be easy for you to sleep peacefully at night because you’re just that heartless. I hate that I even had the chance to meet you and let you into my life. All you ever did was make me cry, scream, chase, beg, and be depressed. You gave me so much anxiety, while every day was just a normal day for you. You love-bombed me, gaslighted me, manipulated me, and then blamed everything you put me through on me. You made me think and believe that I deserved all the pain you gave me. I lost myself. I lost my dignity. I even lost my self-respect just so I could make you stay.

I may, one day, forgive myself for loving you.

But I will never forgive you for breaking me—my heart, my nervous system, and my soul.