Why is it so hard to just say what you feel?

Why is it so hard to just say what you feel?

And in silence, i respond:

“Because I was once so open about communicating everything that resides in my mind, until I realized my words were seen as an overexpression. I watched my naked truths shoved to the side because I was so insignificant for my words to be treated like they matter. I was always honest, always eager to show the world how it hurt me and why I don’t deserve it, only to receive the response that I am not strong enough to last long on this cruel ground I stand on. I was always picking the best phrases, stitching them into a piece where my call for help would stand out, but I was always told I lacked experience and that I just wallowed in my vulnerability like that. I had to be like them to survive, but how can I, when I always tremble at the sound of neglect?

And when I speak, it’s either I overthink too much, or I am misunderstood. I realize I need to stop letting them shrink my words with their incapability to empathize, and I should also stop expecting the world to pause just to listen to me. It’ll keep spinning, and I have mastered what it’s like to stand on my own—unseen and small. It doesn’t matter if I get to share what I have inside me with someone else, and not saying what I feel has become the easiest thing to do.

My silence is my power. What’s unfamiliar to them can’t be shattered. What I don’t share can’t be used against me. 

So I tucked my words underneath, let them rest until they forgot their heartbeat. It's not that I am bad at communicating—it's just that I  grew tired of being unheard."