I'm sorry for forcing you to stay. I'm sorry for forcing you to make time for me and to give me attention. I'm sorry for forcing you to love me even when you don't want me anymore. I thought I could make you love me right. I thought if I continue holding on to you, you would learn to treat me right. But you didn't. In fact, you always make me cry. You always make me sad and always make my heart pounding with pain.
I'm so unhappy, and you never care at all. Why do you have to make me feel so alone when I'm with you? Why do you always have to make me beg for your love? I wish I could just learn to unlove you. I'm hurting so bad, yet you always have a way to hurt me even more. I'm tired— not of loving you, but I'm tired of all the sadness and pain that you're making me feel.
I thought loving you hard will make you love me better. But it wasn't enough. I was not enough. Most of the time, I just wish not to wake-up anymore. So that you would never see me again. So that my heart would stop aching. And maybe, when I'm gone, only then you would realize that I was always been there for you all along.
It makes me sad how you treated me poorly despite of loving you so selflessly. It was sad loving someone with all I have and realized that I was still not enough.
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