Every girl has a wish that she could get a true love in her soulmate, she could get all the happiness, whatever she wishes to she could get in surprises, etc. etc. But these things are only applicable in dreams.
I was a great dreamer and I too had too many expectations from my ahead life and in my soulmate. I wished that I would be getting a great job but I failed in the same. Well you know, I was a struggler. I most probably changed 10-12 jobs to get satisfaction. Still I didn't get satisfaction. But I still continued to dream. I didn't let it go anyways.
Love life: hahaha. I thought if I didn't achieve good job as per my requirements; I thought atleast I would be getting my Life partner. My love life was always a tragedy. Whomever I dated, they would either tell me that I was childish or would consider as a buddy bro. They never realised that I am a girl.
After long time, I got a proposal from one of my team leader. Actually this was first boyfriend in my life. I didn't had a good bonding in my school days or college days with boys. Anyways after his proposal I dreamt about my future. You know why. Let me tell you. He was good looking (I won't say hot) but he was fairer than me, same height, cat eyes like foreigners had. Almost like a fairy tale. I thought all got sort out. I would get babies with cat eyes like he did. Who wouldn't mind having dreams like this. He wasn't rich, he too were a struggler like me. He used to understand what is likes and dislikes. It went in good way until we shared it with our family members. All were against too our relationship as he was a Sindhi and my family wanted only South Indian groom. We convinced them a lot, nothing happened. After long time, his mother comes to me and request me to go away from her son's life. I was broken at that moment. And I was obedient in my words. I promised his mother that I would end up relationship with him and would never come back to his life. It was difficult to break up with him, he too didn't want to break our relationship. Alas! This relationship lasted for 3 years. What we think, it's not required to be successful everytime.
I was in mental trauma for few months. Took depression and tablets to forget everything. But nothing happened. I decided to leave the city by any chance. My friends all tried to stop me. I had secret one side lovers when I was in relationship. Now they got chance to propose in this matter situation. I regretted everyone and left the place.
I came to Bangalore. Beautiful city in India. We will get to know another culture, lifestyle, languages. Here more than Karnataka people, you will find other state people. Both North and South people were together. Different different number plate in vehicle from different states to be found. Bangalore is best for night outs and pubs. I was totally opposite for Bangalore life. It took lots of time to adjust with this culture. Here too I got too many proposal but here people only look for timepass relationships. They wanted something else and I wasn't capable like they wanted. Atlast with my common friend's house party I met a guy who was also mutual friends among others. He too didn't know everyone like I was. Although he talked to me as he got to know that I belong to same state where he stays. At first it was tough to open up conversation with him. He dated me first in a bar. I thought he might have mistaken me as an alcoholic. But I drink occasionally. Still I thought to take this relationship ahead because he too was broken with his first girlfriend. I expected too much from him but he failed me. He was a regular drinker. He was totally opposite than me. His likes and dislikes were different. He doesn't value others so much. It was difficult to control him. He don't believe in God, marriage, time, family etc. I almost tried to break up with him but he doesn't let me go anywhere. I am fed up with relationship. I am no longer going to expect anything from any relationship. I am done. I got more struggles in life.
I am very unlucky in love because I don't receive what I requested to God. So that's why, the content I chose.
If you believe in yourself, you will get more. But do not expect anything from others, it's totally waste of time like I wasted my years. Now it's like I am happy being single instead of being in a relationship.
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